July 2009
“If you have love in your life it can make up for a great many things you lack. If you don’t have it, no matter what else there is, it’s not enough.”
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“When the walls come crashing down, I hope you’re standing there in front of me.”
—WOW. This hella reminded me of that talk we had. I’ll wait outside these walls until they come falling down.. then I can have you right there with me. Remember that?
“And I used to miss you so much, but it never seemed like you missed me, I guess because of that I stopped missing you.”
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"It is better to be told a hurtful truth than to be told a comforting lie”
Ladies & gents, listen up.
ALRIGHT. So, I’m so sick & tired of hearing that all these girls are getting cheated on by their boyfriends, or that their significant other isn’t staying committed. That’s why all these girls are so depressed and posting these emo blogs on Tumblr.. it gets annoying, y’know. Okay, I get it. “It’s part of life” but DANG! Must it happen all the time?! Then I hear that these girls’ boyfriends are flirting with other girls via MySpace comments. REALLY? Are you serious? Dumbest crap I have ever heard. Then the guys come around, frontin’ about how their girlfriend doesn’t trust them. WELL MAYBE IF THEY HAD REASON TO TRUST YOU, THEY WOULD. You fellas are puttin’ up a front, telling ya girl you love them, but then you go behind their back, promising kisses to other girls. Boys.. if you don’t know what’s good for you, don’t settle down in a relationship. Simple as that. You’re the reason girls sway the other way, cos you treat them so damn badly.
And ladies.. stop tryna act so innocent, please. It takes TWO people to fix a relationship, and to make it work. So don’t act like you didn’t do anything. You either triggered the problem, or you didn’t try to fix it. And if you know that a cutie has a girlfriend, DON’T FLIRT WITH HIM. Damn, is it that hard? No, it really isn’t. You girls just want all these boys to think you’re the cutest damn thing ever. So you say stuff like, “Aww, I wish I was the girl you were hugging in this picture..” PUHHLEASE. I hate girls like that. They’re all teases. Then it starts getting dirty.. and they start saying all this dirty stuff.. YA FREAK NASTIES. Learn to keep it in your pants, zdaaang. YOU GIRLS ARE THE REASON BOYS CHEAT ON THEIR GIRLFRIENDS, cos you can’t keep your damn mouths shut. If ya see that a fella has a lady, STAY AWAY instead of causing trouble for all three of you.
W’sup with all this cheating & lack of commitment? Know what’s good for you, and learn to trust each other. Give each other a reason to trust one another. Remind each other why you’re together in the first place.
“Men aren’t stupid, and you don’t need a complicated set of rules to find a good one who loves you. Here’s the only rule you need: if a man loves you, he will do anything he can to keep you around. Anything.”
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#512.
Someone who would have an answer when I ask why they love me.
Reminds me of you. Except when I ask.. you have a whole friggin list. <3
“We’re all damaged in our own way. Nobody’s perfect. I think we are all somewhat screwy, every single one of us.”
—Johnny Depp
I love Ashley & Raymond!<3
Freakin awesome day today. Had a lot of fun, no doubt. Cleaned out my drawers full of schoolwork, found some interesting stuff in there. + Notes from Ashley! Hahaha. We lied outside in the driveway watching the clouds go by and counting airplanes, because there was nothing else better to do. Talked, vented, made fun of each other. Haha, good day. Can’t wait for Thursday; they’re coming over again & we’re making spam masubi! :D For me to bring to the Soulfire Beach Bonfire on Friday. haaaa-LUH.
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“If God puts you to it, He will get you through it.”
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“It’s so easy to fall for someone—you just have to be careful and not open yourself up so quickly.”
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“Never say that someone completes you. We have to feel whole even when we are by ourselves, for needing a certain someone is not love but dependency. Wanting a person to become a part of our life is the best reason for having them. And you can only want when you know you have enough. So rather than search for that someone who will complete you, wait for the person who will complement your completeness.”
—(via earlymornings) (via monsta) (via ariane-xxi)
Featured Acoustic Playlist '09.
Aye, though. I heard it was helllllla good. Freakin jealous as heck that Kenneth went -__- He was texting me like the whole time and he was like, “OMG I’M TALKING TO GABE BONDOC IN THE BATHROOM” Hahaha, lucky fool. -___- & He met AJ Rafael, he was sooo speechless. Haha. Then omg. I asked him if he met ALBERT POSIS<3, right. And he goes, “Yeah, but I just passed him cos I don’t really know him” -____- I hate you, Kenneth. Hahahaha. Just kidding.
But yeah, he was telling me all about it & I was hecka jealous. Like, all day yesterday, I was just watching Albert Posis/AJ Rafael/Mark Mejia/Gabe Bondoc/Cathy Nguyen/Passion, etc. videos to make up for my absence at FAP. Haha, how sad. They best bring it up to the Bay next time, FOREAL.
A bunch of random thoughts, I don't know how to explain.
I’ve been learning a lot about myself and the people around me. I’ve learned that I seriously need to pay attention to what I’m doing; to think before I act. I’ve been trying to get my act together, and I really need to do that, even before school starts. If I had the ability to, I would seriously just go back in time and start over, erasing all the mistakes that I’ve made, because trust me, lesson learned.
On the real, the only people I can actually trust nowadays and who can actually give me good advice is my Soulfire peeps +Ate Rachel & Kenneth. I mean, yeah, I trust other people, and can tell other people a whole lotta other things too, but these kids just.. get me. Ya feel?
I have a thing for Albert Posis and Mark Mejia now.. like, I hella loved them before, but dude, it skyrocketed. Boys who can sing, especially these boys.. wow. Take my breath away <3
I WISH I COULD GO TO FAP! D; They needa bring it to the Bay, forrreal.
I hate how I’ve been spending my summer with mostly guys, because it leaves my parents to believe that I’m doing something I’m not. In all honesty, I’m not like that. I have a lot of guy friends, because they actually listen. A lot of my girl friends like to blab about their boy problems, how they’re depressed & all this crap. Guys, they don’t care about that stuff. That’s why it’s easier for me to talk to them, and that’s why I have so many guy friends. Not because I wanna have a thing with all of them or anything. That’s not even close.
I still have an Honors English assignment to do before school starts, it’s due on the first day -___- Read The Bean Trees + do a dialetical journal = yaaaaayy… NOT.
My walk with God has gotten stronger; I feel spiritually energized a lot of the time now.
For the first time in my life, I’m actually pretty excited about starting school. I walked around campus just yesterday, it’s so huge. I love it (and kind of hate it at the same time). I got my orientation letter in the mail, and I was so excited when I saw it. And I am sooo ready to go school shopping. Oh boy. New school, new people, new assignments, new attitude.
It’s easier for me to control my emotions nowadays. I’ve noticed that I don’t get irritated or angered as easily. I can approach a lot more situations with love instead of spite or anger. I like that.
Maybe it’s not my weekend, but it’s gonna be my year.
I hella wish I was at FAP09 right now.
I’m jealous that Kenneth & Ate Rachel are going.
I hella wanna see Albert Posis <3 & Mark Mejia. +Passion, Gabe Bondoc, AJ RAFAEL, Cathy Nguyen, and everyone else. But the first two are the main ones.
Booooo. They best bring it up to San Jose next time around!
All the single ladies.
I’m tired of all these girls saying they’re depressed about being single. JUST SHUT UP ALREADY, get over the fact that he broke up with you. Yeah, I’m one to talk, I know. But dude, I learned. And you can too. Just let go. If you focus on what you have left behind, you will never be able to see what lies ahead. Trust me, I know how hard it is to let go. And I’ma be real here; you can’t let go when you’re not ready, it’s not going to help at all. Move along at your own pace. Trust me, the whole process will be one heck of a drag, you’re going to cry your eyes out. But don’t try to show everyone that you’re okay when you’re not, it’s just going to hurt you more. Show the world you’re hurting, but at the same time, stay true to yourself. Don’t let some boy be the reason you lose yourself.
You have relationships that are forever, where you learn from them every day for the rest of your life. And then there are those people who come into your life temporarily to teach you some lesson. That boy’s not your boyfriend for a reason. Don’t go crying to him for a second chance, if you were meant to be together again, it would happen in the long run. But HAVE FUN BEING SINGLE, you don’t need a guy to make you happy. Boys just make everything complicated anyways.
Have some self-worth.
What’s up with all these thirteen-year-old girls dressing like they’re frickin juniors in high school?! Short shorts, cut off shirts, hella dark make up. I mean come on now, do you not have any self-worth? Dress appropriately; not all guys like it when you’re showing all this skin, “it’s not attractive.”
“If you focus on what you have left behind, you will never be able to see what lies ahead.”
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HAAA, GOT IT. :D
Love this song! +the boy who sings it.
This week is a hellllla good week of music. Right before FAP, toooo! Shoot. Wish I was going, though ): But still. My two favorite boys coming out with songs this week?! AND Jesse Barrera, too?! Geeze man. Amazing, love it.
Somebody's Baby - Mark Mejia.
LOVELOVELOVELOVE. <3
Come onnnn, SOMEONE make a download for it already!
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THIS SONG. <3 On repeat for hella days.
His voice hellllllllllllaa makes me melt.
Whoever he wrote this for, I’m jealous. It’s hella cute.
Love you, Albert Posis. <3
“Dance like no one’s watching, live every day like it’s your last, and love like you’ve never been hurt.”
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Ladies & Gents.
“A woman’s heart should be so lost in God that a man must seek Him in order to find her.”
Ladies, have a heart for the Lord.
The boy isn’t the priority. It’s God.
He shouldn’t be taking God’s place in your life.
Same thing goes for the guys.
That’s the dream girl.
A girl who loves God more than you.
You shouldn’t be the priority. God is her priority.
Get lost in God!
lightoutloud!
6328.) I love God, he is always there for me.
True that. He’s more accountable than anybody. I’m a mess, but he’s working with me. I praise him for his grace & mercy (and the patience he has for me!).
So when I’m having trouble, who am I gonna call?
No, not Ghostbusters.
GOD.
“You can’t change who people are without destroying who they were.”
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