You & I came sooo close to going to homecoming together. We’ve been growing hella close lately.. no, I don’t love you like thaaat. You’re like my brother. But then again.. ;X Naaah, scratch that. It hasn’t reached that climax yet. To be honest tho, when you were stressin about whether to ask me or her, I said to ask her becos I knew she helllllaa wanted to go w/you. I have no problem w/that. I absolutely LOVE, though, how you &I can talk for hours on end &be hella chill. You’re prolly the only guy I’ve been super close to recently. AND, I love how you called me this morning at 6:20am to tell me good morning, and for me to help you w/ the whole ‘Who should I ask to HC?’ situation. I’m glad we’ve been getting hella close, you’re an amaaazing friend who can always brighten up my day. I love you!, <3
So I only have half an hour on the computer until I can ‘gain my time back.’ Aiya. School’s so much fun, & plus I’m doing good in school. Except for that stupid physics class -_____- Only class I don’t have an A in. I love school, I hella love being involved. Only problem is, I need my hours done before January, & my mom doesn’t really let me stay afterschool.. so we’ll see.
What the hell are we? I know for a fact we ain’t dating, cos we’re not allowed to until we earn her trust back, but what is this? Are we still talking? Cos it sure seems like you’re still my boyfriend. Except for some things. Iono maaaan.. things between us are complicated, just like they always have been. Even though we talk everyday like we used to, call me when you realize you actually need me.
I never have time to Tumblr anymore. Just an unorganized list of what’s happening currently.. I’m grounded. Not fun. Long story, that I don’t feel like putting on blast. Things are different now, I feel it. :T I’m doing good in school, hope to keep it that way. I need to get cracking on my hours, tho. Planning for Homecoming is craaazy! Fun, though. I’m singing the national anthem at the HC assembly :) That’s an accomplishment, haha. I’m getting busier now, aiya. My walk with God has been getting stronger, and small group really helps me. Definitely benefitting from that. High school’s fun, the social scene is great. Physics is crazy hard, though. I want to transfer to physiology or bio or something. I don’t think that’ll happen, though. I’ll stick w/physics for now. Umm, OH! I’m learning how to swim, finally haha. I can float :D Bahaha. That’s all I can think of for now.. update ya later, Tumblrers, haha.
and only so little time to do it in. ;X School is really starting to take its toll on me.
Today was fun. Eh, nothing special really happened at school. Spanish was fun. Ninja w/Jillian, Bryan, & Rapaul. HAHAH. “What’s up, suckaa?!” + Ninja in class w/Kali. Haha. Lots of laughing today, s’alllll good.
Hit up TapEx after school w/Brandon, Michelle, Kenneth, Kali, Anthony, & Tina. Took forever in a day to just leaaave. We took the long way, I don’t know why. Walked down the street telling everybody, “JESUS LOVES YOU!” Got a few smiles here & there. It was so hot outside, eww -___- Hella heads were at Tapioca, therefore it was super hot in there. Didn’t stay there long, we left Tina & got something at Wendy’s real quick for my siblings.
Walked home w/the heads, they were spitting Tapioca balls at people’s walls -__- EW OMG, some random older guy drove past us and was checking me out er something, he did that stupid whistle thing and UGH IT WAS DISGUSTING. Everyone started laughing at me. Reminisced with Kenneth as we walked down the street, HAHAH, saying hella retarded stuff. Got to my house, they kicked it in the kitchen while I cleaned my room.
Let Brandon, Michelle, Kenneth, & Kali into my room after the AC had been on in a while, so they wouldn’t be so hot. Listened to some music. “Every slow song reminds me of you.. see what you did.” Reminisced.. & talked. Name calling.. & cramps. “Just stretch it out!” Jam sessions! AJ Rafael, Here All Alone.mp3. Reminisced some more. “He’s a religious badboy” HAHAHA. They all soon left, I started thinking about some things.
Then Rachelle & Auntie Sarah picked me up to go to church. Got assigned small groups today, I’m excited for that. Every Wednesday @ Cassandra’s house, 7PM! You’re more than welcome to come. :) Planned the rally. ‘Illuminate’ is the theme. Rally is on Saturday, November 21st, 2009 @ 6PM. Be there! Or be boring somewhere else. :)
Nick Jonas. WORD.
Are you a dreamer? - Guess Who.
Hai Michelle. Haha, yeah I’m a dreamer! But I’m not the only one (;
Do you ever feel like you don’t belong or indifferent from others?
Good question. I know that I’m different than a lot of people, but that’s what makes me, well, me. Not so much so that I don’t belong, because I don’t try to impress people. I’m not really assigned to a clique or posse at school, I guess you can say that I’m ‘unclassified.’ But that’s all good with me because I’m not trying to be like everyone else. I’m my own person, and I know who I am. And that’s definitely good enough.
One question. Why do girls always have to checkup on their boyfriend’s ex girlfriends tumblrs for? - YOUR ATEH.
Cos they tripppppin! & cos their boyfriend’s a playa, so it gets around. Hahaha.
Keep ‘em coming! (=
cos the internet is down at my dad’s house + I’m all caught up in schoolwork. I’m busy with planning for homecoming, campaigning for class office, and just overall schoolwork.
Today was ehHhHh. Worse than yesterday, I can tell you that. I mean seriously, what’s happening to us? High school changed everything. I hate how you tell me these things, but at the same time, I’m at least glad that you’re upfront about it. But it disappoints me that we always fight about this. One day we’re good, the next we’re okay, and then the day after we’re not even talking. What happened? I miss the special spark we had in the beginning, and I know you do too. In all honesty, if you didn’t have this problem, we’d be okay. I hope you saw me trying to hold back my tears in choir today. I really didn’t want to be there, everyone saw it. I wonder if you were one of them. At the beginning of class, Christian asked me if I was okay and hugged me for the longest time because I was outside crying. You wouldn’t know because you didn’t pay any attention. I hate your problem, I really do. And I honestly don’t know why I put up with all the pain you put me through. Everyone says I should just leave. But I can’t, because even though you hurt me, I know that you’d be hurt if I left, too. And I don’t want to hurt you. I just.. don’t know anything anymore. I told you, everything’s left in your hands. If you want this, prove it to me. Before you let go, remember why you’re holding on in the first place. You’re always telling me that we can get through anything. Well if you believe that the way I do, fight as hard as I’m fighting.
I smiled reading this whole thing because that is soooo Babe. (;
was craaazy. I was crying during second period, then tried holding back my tears in choir, then cried again during physics, and then I was okay when we sorted things out. No more fights like that ever again, please. :(
PE was fun, though. Best part of my whole friggin day, haha. Friggin Mark, thou. And Shelia & Kevin! Craaaazy kids. We were doing electric slide as a group.. omg hella fail hahaha. Hopefully we’ll do well performing tomorrow, aiyaaa ;X
Guess who’s your Homecoming Committee chairperson (along with Vivian)! Heeey now (; So tonight I have to look at sashes/tiaras for the homecoming court to give to Judith tomorrow. And I get to get in free to the dance (opposed to paying $10, or $5 with an ASB card) + free complimentary pictures. I’m excited!
But mhm, overall, today was pretty interesting.
When I say I am a Christian, I’m not shouting I’m clean livin’. I’m whispering I was lost, now I’m found. When I say I am a Christian, I don’t speak of this with pride. I’m confessing that I stumble & need Christ to be my guide. When I say I am a Christian, I’m not trying to be strong. I’m professing that I’m weak & need His strength to carry on. When I say I am a Christian, I’m not bragging of success. I’m admitting I have failed & need God to clean my mess. When I say I am a Christian, I’m not claiming to be perfect, my flaws are far too visible, but God believes I am worth it. When I say I am a Christian, I still feel the sting of pain. I have my share of heartaches so I call upon His name. When I say I am a Christian, I am not holier than thou, I’m just a simple sinner who received God’s good grace, somehow.
- Stacy: Is your patient going to be alright?
- House: Physically, his chances are good.
- Stacy: Physically?
- House: Two people who weren't meant to be together. Maybe they'll get a happy ending just because they both want it so much.
- Stacy: Yeah, that's usually the way it works.
- House: He loved her enough to convince himself he could change.
- Stacy: But he couldn't, could he?
Today was pretty okay. The weather was nice, I guess.
I was almost late for leadership, but turns out I made it on time. We chose a theme for Homecoming Assembly today, the theme is Pixar. So the classes have to choose a movie and will elaborate on that during their Wednesday class meetings. (Freshmen, we’re meeting in A-Commons tomorrow at lunch! Tell your friends, all freshmen are welcome.) The runner-up theme was Michael Jackson, but I think it would be GREAT if we saved that theme for BOTC. That would be hella legit.
English was good. Got to know people better and did a partner interview. Pretty chill.
PE was boring. Sat there and did nothing. Sang for Sheila & Ms. Finney. Hahah.
At break Brandon & I went to the choir room and met up with Raymond. Chilled there for a while, they were playing piano. ‘This piano is beautiful, omg.’
Choir was pretty fun. Kinda uptight today though, hella serious and stuff. Took a quiz and worked on vocabulary terms. Finished some songs. S’all good.
Physics sucks. I learned a bit today (surprisingly) and I understood today’s concepts (even more surprising).
Met w/Brandon & Babe in the choir room. Chilled there for a bit. Babe and I walked through a wall, hahaha, like literally. There’s this hidden place in the back of the closet, he was showing me all the graffiti that choir did in the past years. It was hella dark in there, I couldn’t see anything -__- But it was fun. (;
Spanish was productive, we actually learned something today! Learned the alphabet and how to spell our names in Spanish. It’s fascinating haha.
Geometry was okay, we actually did work today -__- Bleh. Ate Carmina was about to fight some one girl, HAHAH. Hella told her off.
*Throughout the day I kept thinking about what Rachelle told me on the phone last night. It helped a lot, it made me feel so much better. Made my day go by easier. Brought it up with Babe, it helped us connect and just share our insight on things. Very productive and enlightening.