So I’ve always believed in “happily ever after.” And I still do. I know that relationships aren’t always dandy; trust me, I know that pretty well. But I know that love does conquer all, good times & bad. And in the end you find your Prince Charming. He might not be prancing around on a white horse, but he does ultimately treat you like a princess.
Let’s face it: I’m always going to be a romantic sap.
After everything we’ve been through, I just kinda wish we had it all back. You know, the pillow talkin’ stage, the honeymoon phase, the handwritten letters, the random kisses during passing period to let everyone know we belonged to each other, all the cute “Hi, I just wanted to let you know that I love you” texts in the middle of the day. Now, it’s only so often that you say things like that. Our little cute moments that used to happen every 5 minutes now only come every couple of days. I’m not complaining.. I’m just stuck here, missing what used to be.
I don’t understand why guys find girls “hella cute” when they cake their face. You look at them and all you see is make up: cakey foundation, 5 pounds of eyeshadow with eyeliner all the way up to their eyebrows and bright red lipstick. I mean, yeah, sure, that’s “hella cute.”
“If you took the love of all the best mothers and fathers who ever lived (think about that for a moment)—all the goodness, kindness, patience, fidelity, wisdom, tenderness, strength and love—and united all those virtues in one person, that person would only be a faint shadow of the love and mercy in the heart of God for you and me.”—Brennan Manning
It’s all about your state of mind, your sophistication, your insight. At times what your eyesobserve from the surface of imagesleads to misconduct & misjudgment, but it’s a natural reaction. At times, you forget your morals, your level of maturity, & integrity. As children, we are with minds still blossoming; we take things in our own perspective -expecting that one way street to ourdesires. It requires time for your mind to finally understand reality. As an adolescent, we tend to receive what we areyearning for because we still cannot support ourselves. When it comes down, down to the real deal, the business, the reality of the situation.. we ignore everything but our own desire. Most of the time, we just want our way. Our own freaking way, but life doesn’t work in that direction. It’s difficult welcoming the reality of the situation, but living life without obstacles leads you nowhere. Easier said than done. But life is like monkey bars: sometimes you gottalet go in order to move forward. Sometimes you just gottaswallow everything, maybe choke on it, but it’ll eventually be digested. Actions speak louder than words. It depends on your state of mind, your sophistication, your insight, to comprehend & compensate with your soul. You just have to use your morals, maturity, & integrity to take a step forward and let the ocean’s shore wash away your footprints left behind. We’re still children with minds blossoming, so let your mind thrive & flourish. Inhale & exhale.
I guess I’m just so used to being with my significant other all the time that when a 4-day weekend or holiday break comes up and we each have different family plans that don’t involve seeing each other, it feels like we’re away from each other for so long. It’s hard to be away from that special person. The feeling of being in their arms, feeling their kisses, just being in their presence.. It hurts to be away from that for a while.
But then the feeling when you finally get to see each other.. Oh man. It’s like you’re seeing them for the first time. The butterflies are fluttering inside your stomach ten times harder and your heart is being ten times faster.. You’re just so happy to see them again. Those moments are the best. Reconnecting after you’ve been away from each other.
I honestly don’t know how you couples in long distance relationships can do it, but man.. I give you props.
I don’t understand why some people feel like they need to rush to get to a certain place. Just because you push me doesn’t mean you’re going to get to your destination any faster. The store isn’t going to pick itself up and move, so I don’t see why you’re going to push past people. I think it’s rude when they just squeeze through a crowd of people, pushing around, without being polite. Just give me an “excuse me” and be patient; I’ll gladly move.
It was a success, I suppose. I wasn’t really trying to buy anything big, really, since my mom already told me what I got for Christmas, hekek (;< Just went shopping for stuff I needed, and I guess stuff my mom wanted to splurge on. My purchase list consisted of:
BOY MEETS WORLD ON DVD, I AM ONE HAPPY CAMPER <3 <3
Xbox 360 + Kinect
Justin Bieber’s acoustic album (Mom bought it for me)
Yeah, I don’t think I bought anything else. Haha, nothing too big, really. Fail Black Friday shopping, I guess. But I got everything for good prices. I just really wanna go clothes shopping soon, mhm!
“Isn’t it interesting that in Acts 11, at the end of verse 26, it says, “The disciples were called Christians first at Antioch.” What I find interesting is the simple thought that the Christians didn’t name themselves. But rather, they were CALLED (or named) “Christians” by those watching their lives. I wonder if it would be the same today. Could someone look at your life or look at my life and name me a Christian?”—Foreword from Chris Tomlin, Crazy Love: Overwhelmed by a Relentless God by Francis Chan
The best way to get in contact with me is via my cell phone. Whether it’s urgent or not, send me a text or call me, and you best believe I’m gonna reply/answer the phone with a quickness. I always have my phone on me; I don’t know why. I guess it’s because I hate playing phone tag when I miss a call or waiting days for someone to reply to a text because I responded late.
So, moral of the story: Whether through text or call, the best way to reach me is through my phone.
I’m thankful everyday and try not to take the little things for granted, but there’s something about the holidays that makes it a bit more special. I love the feeling of holiday spirit in the air and being surrounded by loved ones.
And plus, Thanksgiving means food ALL DAY with shopping afterwards. Hehehe (;
Your impulsiveness might get a little out of control today — but you don’t mind! It’s a great time for you to step up and show someone you love just how you really feel, even if they’ve never dreamed of it.
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that is holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake. A soul mates purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, make you so out of control that you have to transform your life…”—Elizabeth Gilbert (via nixxplosive)
I messed up. And I can honestly say that this is the last time that will happen. Because I cannot afford hurting myself and the person I care most about anymore.
So, you all know all know Raymond, right? The young man I’ve been dating for the past 17 months. Or should I say, was dating.
Today we broke up. And I’m honestly so scared that it will be permanent. I really don’t want it to be, though.. Anyone who knows me knows how much I love this boy..
So Raymond, this blog is for you.
First and foremost, I love you more than you will ever understand. I acknowledge the fact that I messed up and that I’m not that great at showing you how much I care. But you are the most wonderful, best thing that has ever happened to me. You & I have been talking about our future a lot recently and it killed me when you told me this today:
"Since we’re over, I just want you to know I saved $300 to buy you a promise ring. It was supposed to come in on Monday and I was going to give it to you on our monthaversary. But I realized promises don’t mean anything to you."
I’ve been crying ever since I read that. You know how much I want to spend the rest of my life with you. I really hope you find it in your heart to give me another chance and show you that it’ll be worth it. Because these past 17 months have been great. And I just want you to know that you mean the world to me. And that I’m going to show it a hell of a lot better. thank you for everything. I am so glad God has blessed me with you. Through every up, through every down, you know I’ll always be around. Together, we can get through anything. I hope you see how much I’m willing to do to show you I’m sorry and that I want to fix this. I love you, Boo Boo. And I always will. I told you, I can never find it in my heart to give up on you. You’re worth it. And I hope I am too.
No, not at all. Always be truthful, even if it means you’re going to make yourself look bad. Love is selfless. Don’t hide the truth from the person you love. They deserve the truth. And trust me, they’ll appreciate the truth a lot more than a lie. Even if the truth will hurt, they’ll have more respect towards you and the fact that you didn’t lie. Lying is never worth losing the person you care most about.
When there is a certain person or certain people in your life whom your cherish dearly, please please please show them. You never know when they’re going to be taken away from you; it’s crucial to show them that you appreciate them. Trust me, it helps. It helps a lot. It can make the whole difference of them leaving you or staying in your life.
when we pray, God always answers us. It’s either a yes, no, or wait. He knows exactly when you’ll need something. Ever experienced those moments where things came along just at the right time? And when we don’t get what we want, it’s obviously a no. And there’s a reason for that, but only he knows what it is. All I know is that he’ll never take something away from you without replacing it with something better. Don’t ever think he left you aside. Just trust in him. Walk by faith and not by sight.
I write not because I want to impress people with big vocabulary or complex sentences. I don’t write fake feelings out just to have people sympathize towards me. I write because it’s a passion.
I love words. The way they fit together to make an articulate statement. I love the way I can place my thoughts into coherent words. Words are beautiful. It feels nice when I can put words together and not sound illiterate.
What I love most though, is poetry. Poetry is something I think I will forever love. Not only the way thoughts are written out so perfectly, but the way they can rhyme. And go to the beat of time and let you enter someone’s mind without being confined. See what I mean? It’s things like that, that fill me with this sense of serene tranquility. It gives me a sense of humility when I get my words down on paper. I’m taking my own responsibility and not worrying about haters. Words just tell a story. Whether it’s lovely or whether it’s gory. Or it can even be dramatic like an episode of Maury. And it doesn’t only have to be legible, it can be auditory.