So, as many of you know, I’m registered for Season 2 of NBC’s The Voice. I’m more excited than I am nervous; I think it’s because I’m so juiced for just the whole auditioning experience. My parents are talking to me about what song I should sing and they’re giving me these audition techniques, it’s crazy. It feels so surreal. At first I was kind of hesitant on auditioning since it’s on a school day but ever since I skipped American Idol auditions for school (and regretted it), I knew that I should start taking every opportunity that’s thrown at me.
I was posted in Mountain House for most of my day because it was my godbrother’s birthday today. I felt bad when Isaac called me and asked if I could come watch him at football camp; I had to say no because my festivities for the day were already planned. He was a bit bummed because we haven’t seen each other in a while, but he is so understanding. He reassured me that it was okay.
Anyways! It was crazy hot at Mountain House Central Park. There was good food though! Including a snowcone machine, cotton candy machine, and popcorn maker. Plus, I got to see a lot of my church family; it’s always nice spending time with them! A couple people I hadn’t seen in a while showed up which is always refreshing; it’s always nice catching up with people you haven’t seen in years.
After we left Mountain House, my dad took us to Office Depot and Target to get started on school shopping. Yay! I love school shopping ^_^ Grabbed most of what I needed and gonna finish up tomorrow. Then sometime this week we’re gonna go clothes shopping: my favorite part!
And what better way to end my day than by getting Taco Bell for dinner :D
On the car ride home tonight, my mom and I had a talk about my future: What career I wanted to pursue, what decisions I should make, etc. My mom’s really good at providing support for whatever it is that I want to do. She’s not like those other parents who say, “You HAVE to be this” or “You have to be that.” She’s content with letting me follow my own dreams as opposed to whatever dreams she may have for me.
Anyways, the talk really opened my eyes to the fact at how close the future is. I mean, high school’s half over for me.. This year is where I start to get even more serious about my studies and look for the colleges I want to attend.. The real world is just around the corner. It’s not just all fun and games anymore.
When in a relationship, I’ve realized that the little things mean the most to me. I appreciate the little things, such as the good night texts or the opening of doors when we’re out in public. Effort is all I really ask for in a relationship, because it lets me know that you want it as much as I do. The effort slowly builds up trust along with other fundamentals of a partnership, and that’s why it’s significant to me.
My boyfriend is on restriction from his phone and the computer because he forgot to do some chores that his dad asked him to do. So, he stole his brother’s phone just to call me to talk to me :) He was saying how he missed me and that it’s hard for him to sleep at night since he’s not able to fall asleep to my voice. He’s not sure when he’ll be off restriction but he said he’s gonna be even more of a good boy so he can get his phone back. He said, “Last night, I was just laying down and thinking, ‘I wish I had my phone, that’s all I want. I want to talk to my girlfriend.’”
I’m just happy that I got to hear his voice after a while. I’m glad he called and made the effort to talk to me at least once today, even though he’s in trouble haha.
You know what would be nice? If we could have money at all times. You know, having our wallets refill themselves when they start to get empty so we wouldn’t have to worry about asking our parents for money or saving up whatever loose change we have.
I only say this because I’m always wanting to go shopping, haha.
I usually don’t stick with my first impressions of people because a lot of the time, they’re wrong. For example, I might catch someone on one of their bad days where they treat everyone like crap but in reality they’re a really nice person. In most instances, I just shrug it off and if I’m ever to encounter the person again, I’ll look at them with a fresh perspective, as if it’s my first time meeting them.
Isaac got his phone taken away last night because his dad thinks he texts too much, haha. So because of lack of communication, Isaac logged on to Facebook for the little time that he could before getting ready for football practice and he left this on my wall:
"happy one monthsary babe ♥ ill love you forever and as long as im here ill try to make you the happiest girl in the world. im glad i can be the one in your life that can be there to love you."
In a little less than three weeks, I will embark on my journey of my third year in high school.I’m scared and nervous, yet determined at the same time. Determined to do better than I did last year, determined to work harder, determined to be more active in extracurriculars — all while trying not to put too much on my plate, for I want to maintain excellent grades.
I’m mostly excited about seeing what this school year has in store for me. I’m not gonna lie; I absolutely love my school. I love how spirited we can be and just the diversity of our student population. I’m excited for the assemblies, airband, spirit weeks — everything! The class of 2013 is gonna bring it bigger and better this year, so watch out ;)
If there’s anything else I’m excited for when it comes to school, it’s school shopping, HAHA! (You know, besides seeing my friends and making new ones.) I love buying new bags, notebooks, pens, pencils, CLOTHES.. I don’t know, it makes me more anxious to start school. The best part about the last week of summer is getting your ID and class schedule so that you can compare it to your friends’. Oh, and Link Crew! I’m a Link Crew leader this year, so that should be fun as well.
I really don’t know where I went with this post but I guess you could say I’m kind of anxious for the school year to start. (Watch me regret saying that once it actually does start.)
Eh, I don’t know. I’m not into the whole ‘clubbing’ thing that everyone seems to be into nowadays. I mean, my friends say that it’s fun (although they said the last one sucked) but I’ll just to stick to my high school dances for now. =)
I have a love/hate relationship with taking naps. As much as I love being able to catch up on sleep and being comfortable, I hate waking up feeling lightehaded or with a headache, or with the feeling like I’m about to throw up.
Those posts that list things you should do in a relationship to keep it alive are just ridiculous to me. What are you, the Dr. Phil of Tumblr? You can’t dish out advice like that if you don’t know what you’re talking about. Maybe those things will help you in your relationship, but you can’t guarantee that it will help everyone else’s.
People forget that they can’t always believe what’s on the internet. Figure out for yourself what makes your relationship work instead of taking advice from “relationship gurus.”
"I wish I could go back in time to fix all my mistakes."
When asked the question, “If you could go back in time to change something, what would it be?" a lot of people respond with things that they regret or mistakes that they wish they didn’t make. But see, if you were able to go fix those things, what fun would that be? Things happen for a reason. Imagine if you were able to fix every single mistake you made by the push of a button. As nice as it would be to have everything go perfectly for you, you wouldn’t benefit from anything. You wouldn’t learn through your experiences nor know how to handle the situation if it ever became familiar again. Mistakes lead to experience and experience leads to learning.
how are the pictures you take so clear? do you edit them?
For my camera settings, I set the resolution to like 4800x3600, so it’s pretty big. And yeah, I edit them, if you mean resize. By the time I resize them down, they’re pretty clear. And then I save it as a PNG file so it’s good quality. I hope that helps! :)
So, my best friend just called me. Recently he’s been contemplating on how he wants to ask his girl out and he finally did it. Although it was not exactly how he planned it, it happened. He kept thinking things wouldn’t go right or that he’d make a complete fool out of himself, but I was right and things went fine :)
It’s extremely nice to see my best friend happy. I’m soooo happy for him! I haven’t seen him like this in a long time.. I could hear his happiness through the phone, haha! Well, yeah. I’m just happy for my best friend. Congratulations! Now we can officially double date, haaaay ;)
I feel like school helps me out a lot with my friendships. In other words, it helps me maintain friendships with those whom I value and those who are important to me. Maybe it’s the routine of seeing someone everyday that makes me a lot closer to them. Because once a vacation/break starts, we go do our own thing; even though we say, “We need to hang out!” there are times where we don’t pull through. Seeing the person daily and forming a bond with them helps bring us closer in the longer line of days. At least, that’s how I see it.
My dreams have been pretty awesome lately, not gonna lie, haha. First it was Nick Jonas, then last night I had a dream about Taylor Lautner and how he had a crush on me. Dang, two of my favorites! Justin Bieber, you’re next! ;)
When you buy something new, you do whatever you can to keep it clean, to preserve it. You keep it in its case, away from anything that might scratch it. You make sure to keep it away from keys, or knives, or other sharp objects. You don’t let anyone touch it; for a long while, you keep it to yourself and make sure you never lose sight of it, because once you do, you act as if your whole world is gone. But then one day you just don’t care about it anymore; you drop it on accident once or twice, you notice some scratches here & there, and pretty soon it isn’t kept in its special place. You throw it aside with everything else. It has surpassed its form and become nothing but function.
Sometimes we treat people that way, too. You meet them and make sure they stay away from breakage. You form a bond with them, and do anything you can so that you don’t lose them. They become special to you, as if it’s almost impossible for them to walk out. You care for them, you become close. But then you start to scratch them. Again. And again. And again. Most of the time, not on purpose. Sometimes you just drop them on accident or forget where you placed them. But after the first scratch, that’s it. It all starts going downhill from there. You see past their form. They’re nothing but function.
You would rather hang out with others than spend time alone, and you’d far rather be doing something with your friends than just sitting around. You’re happy in a crowded room, club, stadium, or auditorium.
You’re not a private person who is ill at ease in a group; you don’t view excessive socializing as a waste of time.
You tend to feel at home wherever you find yourself, even in unfamiliar settings, with new people. It takes a lot to rattle you, and when rattled you recover quickly and gracefully.
You are usually not self-conscious or nervous when you’re in an unfamiliar environment or with people you don’t know.
You have a genuine interest in other people. You’re a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you’re usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort. Scoring high on the “warm” trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don’t always say exactly what you’re thinking; you don’t like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.
You are willing to take the time to find out what’s going on with other people, especially if they’re in distress. You’re a good listener, you don’t criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it’s requested. With a high score on the “understanding” trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.
You don’t feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.
You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.
You don’t buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else’s because unless you’re happy you’re incapable of making anyone else happy.
You are a “glass half-full” kind of person, always on the lookout for the silver lining. Your happiness is contagious, which is why others like to be around you.
You do not feel that the world is an intrinsically depressing place; you are not the kind of “realist” who thinks that only fools find joy in life.
You are more interested in interacting with others than in being by yourself. For you, it is a boring waste of time to sit around, alone, and analyze why you are the way you are.
You don’t prefer your own company to being with friends; you’re not so interested in what’s going on in your mind that you don’t need to interact with others. And you get no pleasure out of sitting around, alone, trying to figure out what makes you tick.
You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you’re proud of it. Those with a high score on the “aesthetic” trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.
You don’t think it’s pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You’re not one of those who believe it doesn’t matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.
You have a knack for knowing what’s going on in the hearts and minds of those around you, without their having to tell you explicitly. People tend to turn to you with their problems because they know you care, and that you will likely offer good advice and a helping hand. You do not feel that people with sad stories are just looking for attention, or have brought their problems upon themselves.
You’re comfortable expressing yourself in words and actions, with no self-censorship. You believe that if someone doesn’t like what they see it’s not your problem, but theirs. A high score on the “accessible” trait suggests that you have a lot of friends, socialize often, and enjoy rap/hip-hop music.
You don’t see the need to keep your thoughts to yourself, or to have a zone of privacy that encompasses only yourself and a small circle of friends and relatives.
Intuition is knowing by instinct, as opposed to rational facts. Some people say that our intuition is rarely wrong, so if we can learn to listen to the advice it’s giving us, it can keep us out of harm’s way.
The thing with me is, I like being happy. That is seriously one of my favorite things. I’m always down to have a good time; laughing, smiling, just hanging out and not having to worry about negative vibes.
It’s really something when you’re able to surround yourself with people who can always keep your mood light and stress-free. That’s why I’m glad that I have the friends that I’ve acquired throughout the years; there’s never a dull moment with them. I can always count on them to keep me laughing and that’s something I’m really grateful for.
Being able to keep yourself happy is a great feeling. You don’t have to stress about anything and it reminds you of the more positive things in life which will eventually get you looking at things more optimistically.
You make me want to take back every good thing I used to say about my ex.
When I was with him, I would constantly say, “He’s the best I ever had” or “I have the best boyfriend in the world.” But now.. Oh man, now.. I realize how wrong I was when I said those things about him because you show me a new happiness that I can’t even begin to explain. I know that only now do I have the best boyfriend. It’s amazing how much joy you bring into my life. Thank you.
I ask if my boyfriend can come over today before football practice and you say no because you’re not here. You’ve let him come over before when you’re not here but all of a sudden it’s become a “not yet, Kase, I hope you understand.”
I don’t think I do because he’s been over here like 3 times while cousin and everyone else was here while you were at work. And it’s not like we isolate ourselves from anyone; we’re in the kitchen the whole time he’s here.
I’m not mad or anything, it’s just whatever, I mean, I can always see Isaac on the weekends or something but I really hope your answer was not a result of you talking to your girlfriend and her letting you know what your answer should be. Because I really don’t see how, in a matter of a week, it goes from “Sure, he can come over, as long as he doesn’t go into your room” to “Unfortunately not today, Kase. I can’t let him be there when I’m not. I don’t want any guys in the house when I’m not there.”
I wish you could trust me. I know there are things that make it seem like you shouldn’t but I know better than that. I really do. He knows better than that, too. And he’s different, dad.. he’s different than the last one.. he treats your daughter like a princess and would never put me in any kind of danger. He’s such a gentleman and it’s a lot for me to get used to but he’s a good guy, dad. And I really wouldn’t do anything I’m not supposed to do. I wish you knew that.
Last night I had one of the best dreams ever, haha!
So what happened was, it was my 17th birthday. I decided I wanted to go to Disneyland with my family, so we went. But on the way there I called Nick Jonas to see if he and his brothers would be down to go. They ended up heading over there too. My next phone call was to Nick Carter (of the Backstreet Boys) and I asked if they were busy. He said no and they all ventured to Disneyland as well.
We got to our hotel and met up with the Jonas Brothers and Backstreet Boys. Once Nick Jonas saw me, he gave me the biggest hug I had ever received. He looked at me and said, “It’s been soooo long! I missed you!” And kissed me on the lips. I was pretty dumbfounded, so I didn’t really do anything. I said hi to everyone else and we all went to the theme park.
Throughout my dream they would all sing to me, just for the heck of it. I don’t know.
The days quickly pass by and my eyes are open to more experiences. I come to new realizations and laugh at myself for how naive I used to be. Anyways, summer is almost coming to a close and I will embark on my junior year in high school. It’s crazy; I’m halfway done with high school.
There are many more things I want to achieve and do with my life before high school comes to a close and it’s time for me to face “the real world,” as some may call it. But I guess for now I’m just embracing the moments that come by and making the best out of every situation.
Isaac:Yeah, that we're together now. Because.. think about it. We know all the same people, hang out at the same spot, but never knew each other for 2 years. Then on one random day that I decide to go somewhere, you're there too and we notice each other. Maybe it's meant to be.
Me:Maybe, babe. Maybe.
Isaac:And imagine if we met before all of this.. would it still turn out the way it is now?
Me:I honestly don't know but I'm happy with the way things turned out.
Isaac:Me too. I'm glad with the results.
-silence for a while because I was starting to fall asleep-
Isaac:I love you, babe.
Me:Heh, it gives me butterflies when you say that.
Isaac:It makes me smile to know that I'm able to say it. To be able to say that I love someone. More importantly, that I love YOU. It's the greatest feeling in the world.
I used to be trippin over my past, asking myself questions such as, “Why did I let myself go through that?” And yeah, I still question it but the thing is, the past is behind me. It’s over with. I don’t need to look back. I’m glad that whatever happened in the past is over with because now I have everything I need. Nothing more, nothing less.
Reflections Challenge Day 5: Reflect on what you stand for. What are you passionate about? What were you passionate about? Is it worth being passionate for again? How can you keep your passion without fear of what others think or feel?
Okay this is really weird because I JUST wrote a blog about people being passionate about something hahaha. I didn’t even know this would be my topic, but alright. I find my passion in singing; in performing. It’s always been that way and I know it will continue to stay like that. There was a time where I was passionate about writing; poetry and short stories—things like that. Of course it’s something worth being passionate about again, and yes, the inspiration for writing comes back every once in a while.
I’ve never let what people say get to me, especially when it comes to what I’m passionate about. I think what people tend to forget is that when you’re passionate about something, it shouldn’t matter what other people say. If that’s what you love, then go for it! Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something.
I am inspired by people who have a passion for something and make it evident. For example, I have friends who are passionate about music therefore they do whatever they can to pursue it, whether it be by making mixtapes, performing at local coffee shops, or creating a home studio just so they can record a track. Their drive is what inspires me as well as their determination to keep their love for whatever they are passionate about.
I am also inspired by those who work hard for what they want. No matter what comes their way, they don’t let it hinder them from working towards their goal. Instead, they use it as motivation. I am inspired by people like that because they don’t let anything get them down but instead keep pushing harder to achieve what they desire.